The answer was usually: “No – I don’t want to lose my FREEDOM!”

In 2010, I was drawn to the Pregnancy Yoga Teacher Training with Gurmukh Kaur Khalsa in New York at the end of my long journey through the USA & India. Of the many trainings I did in the field of “Yoga & Energetics” during this period, it was by far the most challenging training for me. Again and again I was asking myself:

✨ “Why do people want to be a mother/a father?” ✨

I finished the pregnancy yoga training with a lot of inner resistance & shortly afterwards, without wanting to, I started teaching pregnancy yoga.

A lot of good came out of it! 🥰

Over the course of the years, the question has been on my mind more or less:

✨ DO I WANT TO & CAN I “be a mother”? ✨

… over the years I was pregnant 3 times …

but it wasn’t meant to be … it was never the right time and partner …

( looking back – I was relieved each time when I was no longer pregnant …)

At 44, I wrote in my diary: “If it is in my soul’s plan to “be a mother”, then please let it be this year!”

At the end of 2023, the subject of pregnancy seemed to have been ticked off for me.

On January 8th, 2024, a friend showed me a  slipstone in the forest. It is said, that if you slip through this hatching stone, you will get pregnant!

I meditated by this slipstone & immediately felt connected to Mother Earth & Father Sky.

I saw myself crawling “head first” through this slipstone.

My ego didn’t want to crawl through – but my soul’s voice was stronger.

& so I did what my soul wanted me to do …

I meditated again after I had crawled through & let go completely …

I let go so much that I didn’t tell anyone about it …

& on the new moon on April, 8th 2024 the gynecologist told me:

“You’re 8 weeks pregnant!”

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I loved my body the way it was &
have always been very proud of my beautifully toned belly,
but the belly changes during pregnancy! 😊

I loved my way of “intermittent fasting”, a tasty glass of wine here and there & my way of yoga,
yet all of that had to change due to the new life growing within me! 😊

My yoga practice was always very focused on my center, on my solar plexus: It made me a very disciplined person with great stamina.

Over the years, however, I also have learned to integrate the Yin more and more into my life:
Not always just persevering and actively doing, but also consciously pausing and allowing myself to receive!

Nevertheless, my personal yoga practice remained rather focused on Yang, as my body needs a lot of movement
& I also feel most comfortable in a well-trained body.

20ieth week of pregnancy

By now I’m in the 20ieth week of pregnancy & my body, my life and my yoga practice have changed a lot:

My belly is no longer beautifully toned, intemittent fasting is no longer possible, I have had to skip my tasty glasses of wine here and there and I’ve also had to completely change my yoga practice!

& sometimes these changes make me a little wistful …

I see the planes in the sky and think to myself here and there: “Wow, it’s been so long since I’ve flown” …

& then I consciously go into my FEELINGS, into total ACCEPTANCE of all my feelings … allow them to be … stroke my big tense belly & then usually have to smile …

I often ask this soul in my big belly:

“Who are you?”

“How do we know each other?“

… and then I am filled with peace & love & confidence …

& hear this sentence over and over again: “Finally we will be together again!”

& the voice of confidence takes over again:

“ALL IS WELL – JUST AS IT IS !”

&

“ALL FEELINGS ARE ALLOWED TO BE!”

My new routine for body, mind & soul

My mantra for life is: “There are only solutions!” … & … hence I have now found a new routine for myself that makes me happy:

To stay physically fit and toned, I walk a lot. In my Khalsa Way pregnancy yoga teacher training, the trainer recommended walking a lot during pregnancy. Above all, conscious walking in nature strengthens our root chakra, our connection to Mother Earth and therefore our trust in life and ourselves. We need this trust for pregnancy, birth and our new role as a mother!

To “cleanse” my mind, I meditate or do energy work, just as I did before pregnancy.

I connect with my soul best in nature, or when meditating or doing energy work!

& so I accept this new chapter in my life over and over again … & always find new solutions!

One of my South African teachers – Alan Davie – once told me: “ALWAYS STAY ADABTABLE TO CHANGE!”

… yes … LIFE IS CHANGE, GROWTH IS OPTIONAL …

& so I keep growing, as my life is changing because of pregnancy!😊

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